The only thing that is constant is that things are always changing. Don't ask me who said that, I do not know. It was just in my head, but it's so true. Time has never once stood still, so that in itself is change. Seconds ticking by, days turning to weeks. Nothing is the same as it was.
It's not just time or our surroundings. We change too. We grow, and become different people. Sometimes we change before we even realize it's happening. Things grow in our hearts so quietly that we don't even know they're growing until they bloom.
That's happening with me. I've made an important decision that will have a big impact on my life. I'm moving. I'll be with Boyfriend, of course, but it's more than that. I think I've just outgrown where I am. I really want to move. I don't want to get out of the state or anything. I'm definitely a girl who loves her home state, but I think it's time for a change of scenery.....a change of pace.
Through my job I can take classes at our state capitol. I've always loved it down there, and could very easily picture myself working there. That little seed of thought was planted with my very first class down there. It grew quietly until recent events in my life made it blossom into a full grown need. First, I met Boyfriend and fell in love. His work is in a city near the capitol, so that's where he's been. Second, the constant threat of layoffs here is getting to be a drag. I'm always confident that Bossman will do everything he can to keep us employed, but my heart is telling me that my time here may be running short. This other city is calling my name and drawing me in.
So, I'm applying for jobs...Jobs that will keep me employed with my state. If things work out I will be employed a little more south than I am now. I'll not only be out of the attic, but I'll be out of my parents' house for the very first time. I'll be out of the city where I grew up for the first time besides those vacations I take every year. It's new and exciting, and terrifying all at once. What a rush.
I have no illusions that it will be easy. I know in this economy it's not like I can walk into an office down there and say, "here I am, hire me". It's been a while since I've gone through the hiring process. I've never left my comfort zone. This is me finally feeling all grown up. It's going to be a wild ride, but a fun one. I'm taking a leap of faith that I can only hope I'm ready for.
I won't be far from my family. It's really important to me to still be close enough to be with them because we're so close knit. If you had asked me a year ago if this was even a possibility I would have told you that you might as well ask me to live on the moon. My head couldn't grasp that idea. However, I think my heart was already planning, scheming, and preparing me to move on.