Fridays and I usually get along pretty well. I get to see Boyfriend. I have the next two days off work. I get to sleep in on those two days. Yep, I love me some Friday. Last Friday, however, was not so nice to me. It slapped me once, then slapped me twice and set me out in the cold. The weekend could not have come at a better time. I needed a break.
I got some bad news. Two bits of bad news actually. The first is that I may be looking at layoffs in my office in the next few months. So, yeah, bummer. The other bit of bad news isn't mine to share. It's sucky, but it's not detrimental to anyone's health or anything. It just, well, sucks.
I cried.....a lot on Friday. Crying just seems to be how I process things when they get to be too much. I'm a crier and I'm darn good at it. I just hate it when it happens at work. It's not so great having one of the customer service people looking like scary blotchy girl, but that was me. It felt like everything in my stable world was slowly crumbling one little bit at a time. I kept waiting for more bad news to jump up and start chipping away at what was left of that once solid foundation. I kept waiting to fall.
After I pulled my shit together at work, the rest of the afternoon was a haze. I knew I still needed to do some crying to work all the kinks out, but I was determined not to do it at work. I held everything together right up until I walked into Boyfriend's apartment. He asked how I was doing, and I burst into tears. Poor guy. I'm sure that's not what he had in mind to start the weekend. He was great though. He kept telling me it was all going to be OK. He told me that he'd never let anything happen to me....that he'd take care of me. He said all the right things, and he made me believe them.
Saturday was a much better day. I started to look at the bad news and decide that I wasn't going to let it tear me up. I was going to take that bad news, flip it around some, twist it, and beat it until it became good news. I can look at it as a brand new opportunity. New beginnings perhaps. I don't know what's going to happen in the next few months, but I know I'll land on my feet. Exciting things are going to happen for me, I refuse to give up the driver's seat. I'm in charge of my life, and it's going to stay that way.
Monday's here and I overslept. That happens when you don't turn on your alarm clock. I don't feel like I'm falling down a deep, dark well....maybe that extra sleep did me good. Don't get me wrong....I don't see a time where Monday and I are best buds, but this Monday is much better than last Friday. Maybe today, a case of the Mondays is a good thing. Life's what I make it. I'm going to make it good. So, bring it on world. I'm ready for ya.