Superstitious

I just know the second I type this sentence I'm going to regret it.  Not that sentence, the next one coming right up.  I'm about a week and half restless leg free.  Great, now it's all out there in the universe and tonight I'll be flopping all over the place.  Oh well, it is what it is.  For almost an entire week I wouldn't go to bed without eating an orange because that's what I had right before I went to bed the first night my legs were calm.  Maybe it was the orange, maybe not.  However, I'm restless leg free without oranges.  I've been fighting those legs for years now.  I finally had to get on medicine.  Then, I was sick of relying on that medicine, and went back to fighting.....and won.  I didn't see that coming.

I also got a job.  I haven't started yet, but as soon as that background check comes back I'll be employed.  Temporarily.  I'm a seasonal employee of JC Penny.  I love that store, I just hope I love working there.  You see, I'm torn.  I need a job.  There is absolutely no doubt about that.  However, I worked very hard to get to a place where I was doing something I loved, with people who were awesome, and I got to be off weekends and holidays.  That was huge.  As many people I treasure those weekends and holidays because that's family time.  I can kiss those weekends goodbye real soon.  I may have to work on Thanksgiving too.  That's hard for me.  I feel like I'm going backwards, rapidly.  I loved working at UDF, but I missed out on everything and got depressed.  I was so happy to move onto jobs that so far have allowed me to have that free time.  So, yeah, I'm going backwards.

I'm not only losing those weekends and possibly Thanksgiving, but probably my evenings too.  I know, geeze, could I be any more doom and gloom about this job?  I blame the fact that I just finished watching The Walking Dead.  It's hard to be cheery after watching a show about the zombie apocalypse.  Anyway, I was told flat out that I cannot request any weekends off.  I'm smart enough to know the new, temporary girl, isn't going to get the good shifts.  So, if I'm working evenings, there's a good chance I'm not going to be seeing my husband too much during the week either.  He'll probably be in bed by the time I get home.

I don't want to sound ungrateful.  I'm so glad I finally have a job.  I just always thought I'd be moving forward, not backward.  It's just temporary.  Which is good and bad.  On one hand, after the holidays I can have my weekends back.  On the other hand, ummm, hello unemployment.....again.  I pray I have the strength to remain positive even though I may miss things I would have otherwise been doing with my family.  Go figure, my parents raised me to be close to my family.  That's why it's so upsetting to miss out on those family gatherings.  People I love have been lost way too soon.  I'm lucky to have had so many memories to cherish.  I don't want to miss out on making all those memories with the people I love that are still here.

I wonder what the me from 10 or 15 years ago would think of the me now.  Let's see, two years into college, I was working at UDF and wanting to move forward into my career.  It's kind of funny.  I'm about to be in a similar position.  I think the me from back then would laugh.  Oh well, moving on, moving forward.  Back then both my professional and romantic lives both sucked.  At least now my personal life is perfect.   Maybe this is just another step.  Maybe something great is waiting for me in my career.  Maybe it could hurry up and get here.

A Decision

I have been wanting an iPhone for a while.  I’m not due for an upgrade on my phone until August (don’t even get me started on how much I hate that the phone company can tell me when I can get a good deal on a phone).  My problem is my recent vow that every single extra penny is going to go toward my current goal of getting to Las Vegas to see (and hopefully meet) Donny and Marie.  I will admit that an iPhone would take a serious chunk of money away from my tin can that is collecting my savings for Vegas.  However, the point of chasing my wild and crazy dreams is not to deprive myself of other things. 

Wow, I just realized how materialistic I just sounded.  Let me explain.  Most of the things I want out of life have more to do with the experiences that come from them.  On the flip side, I am such a gadget geek.  I’m considering it a good sign that I’m not overpowered by the need for an ipad (isn’t that an unfortunate name).  Sometimes my attention span is short, and my current need for an iPhone is distracting me from other new gadgets that might steal my affection. 

All that being said, if push comes to shove, I’ll choose Donny and Marie over the iPhone if I discover that I can’t afford to lose that chunk of money from my “live everyday to it’s fullest” fund.  I mean, where’s the iPhone going to go?  It will be there.  The trip to Vegas to see Donny and Marie is probably a once in a lifetime experience.  It’s one that I’m not willing to give up. Ultimately, things come and go, but memories are worth more than any gadget ever will be.  Hmmmmm, did I just accidentally make a decision about the iPhone.  Interesting.

A Spinoff

I’m sick from work today and have lost my mind to the boredom that comes with sitting at home not feeling like doing anything but sit in front of the television.  In order to try and spice things up I decided to grab the good ole’ laptop and wander around the internet for a while.  I checked e-mail, facebook, and twitter (oh aren’t I just the little social butterfly).  I looked a the news websites so I could stay updated on the goings on in the world around me. 

I found that although I’m not feeling well today, sitting around has left me with an abundance of energy.  Problem is…..it’s energy on the inside, not the outside because if I get up to even walk around the room I feel like I need to take a nap to recover from the effort.  Usually, when I have too much energy I can’t sit still, and I talk way, way, way too much.  So, welcome to the blog……where I can talk all I want because it’s my little world.

I’ve discovered myself to be making my way out of my shell recently (hello late bloomer), and due to recent happenings that shook me up a little, I’ve adopted the motto that we only live once.  I’m not going to sit around and wait for my dreams to come true anymore.  I’m going to make them happen. 
This is the part where I explain the title of this post.  A Spinoff…..Confessions of an Attic Dweller (http://confessionsofanatticdweller.blogspot.com/) has a new sister!  Ladies and Gents, allow me to introduce you to Adventures of Attic Dweller (http://adventuresofatticdweller.blogspot.com/).  See, in “Confessions” I post random things going on in my life at the moment I sit down to write.  In “Adventures” I’ll be posting about exactly what I’m doing to chase my dreams. 

I have so many dreams, and I just don’t think they’re impossible anymore.  This blog is proof that I can be a published author, even if my writings aren’t held between the covers of a book…..yet.  There are places I want to go, things I want to see, and people I want to meet……which is where this journey is going to begin.  Ok, confession time:  I used to really really want to be an actress.  I still have that love for movies and television, but my creative outlet has become writing.  The love for entertainment has led me to compile a list over the years of celebrities I’d like to met.  At the top of that list has been Donny and Marie.  Yes, THAT Donny and Marie.  If I can meet them, I’d be on top of the world!!  Since they’re in Vegas until 2012 I’ve got time to save up to go see them.  If I can meet them, I can do anythng!

So, if you want to hear the confessions of a nearly 27 year old, single girl, who lives in her parents’ attic, keep checking here.  If you want to hear about how I’m getting out of the attic and taking the world by storm, go here.

Ok, so, I’m going to go get some soup and watch a soap while I’m cuddled on the couch with a blanket.  I’ve got to get my tummy feeling better because I suspect I’ll need to leave the couch to accomplish anything on my list.